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Tuesday, January 1, 2008

haiz...today is a terrible horrible super bad day. even though today is the new day of the year.and that's a super bad start for 1st jan 2008. here's wat happen:

morn went to swim. disaster. swam for only 1 and half hour then we're out of there coz we still need to go to dar's place. then dar's da jie ask him if he wanna play majong. so we 2 say ok. but that was a big mistake.a huge one. so after lunch went to his place thinking "shit i have to do the SDS qn to ans. something that i don even noe wat the qn asking about. and then there's majong which is like so hard to resist.haiz." anyway at his place, i manage to get help from joey(thank you so much for ur ans. =) )and then manage to complete the other qn which to me was rubbish. so both the ans was .... best of all i was like playing majong and trying to find the remaining ans at the same time. now that was difficult coz im playing against 2 of the good players(dar and his mum). anyway first round i won. fulstop. the number of rounds that i won for the day can be counted with one hand, so u can guess how much i lost. 32.6. n dar won 61 bucks. yeah wah. ytd he lost 30 today he won back double. but then i found out ytd he gave way. now that's wat i hate. if im bad then im bad. y would anyone wan to give way one day and then the next they let ppl realise how lousy they are?

now here comes the big prob. im not good at losing.n i cant take it wen i lost even though i noe i sux since im juz a beginner. wenever i noe i sux at something then i will get stress up. n today juz nice i sux at the 2 things which im juz only starting to learn.but i wan to be a bird who can fly when its juz born. so after dinner i din wan to play anymore since i noe dar ke(curse in chinese) coz he's above me. but no he insist that i have to play(which i don c y) and thank you very much i lost even more than i wanted to.32 bucks is one month meals expenditure but i noe that he will not take my money coz he don like as a couple to return money here and there. but i don like to noe that i owe him. i noe its wrong to return him the money but no matter wat i can sit there doing nth knowing that he's 32 bucks less coz of me. becoz the 61 bucks he won 32 bucks is included. n he owes his mum 30. now 61-30-32= -1 buck. does it feel good to noe that its bcoz of u that ur bf earned -1 buck? there's another angle to look at: we 2 are a couple. n we all noe that ur money is my money my money is urs. we go out together there's no pt thinking who owe who. of coz the latter is the better one but somehow it juz bugs me. n that SUX. now that's some way to spend a new day of a new year isn't it?

supposedly i should feel better after writing this post but somehow im not....n i wonder y....
alvin toh wei min i will rmb the day u win all my chips de.one day n soon im gg to win all of urs. including the red one. humph.

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