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Thursday, July 31, 2008

we're so fragile that im so scared
everything around me is scaring me
i wish that everything don have to happen
that my mummy is still here with me
that wen i cut my finger she can plaster it for me
that wen we no longer who we are she's here for me
but now she's gone i rely on you
but i now know i was wrong to do that

10:18 PM

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i love u
i want u

Tuesday, July 29, 2008

so today slack day. presentaton was a shit. lols. but at least never shoot until very jia lat lah..so after that was lunch at mac where i collected my 3rd cup and then pdd. where 99% i dono wat he's talking. actually wanted to skip the whole day lesson but think over i oso don have processing tips so might as well stay back to study. so me n yis studied together during the long break before labelling n during labelling. but study until very sian ar. lols. so now im trying to study but nth seems to be gg in n so im gg to call it a day. but now clar like don like me go ar. lols.but im so happy tmr she say no need go sch for proj. at least i can pei dar go buy ingre coz he say wan to cook lunch for me...hehehehehehe.

10:25 PM

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i want u

Monday, July 28, 2008

today is exhibition day. n our cake was nice lah...except for one of the tray. haha. but anyway loads of ppl like our chessecake including those VIP. haha. n alot of ppl still wan to place order sia. got one teacher still ask me: "if i wan to buy i juz order from u then u make the cake?" then im like no lah our teacher don allow. she tink we factory sia..place order then we do straight away. but not bad leh...if she willing to pay 40 bucks i don mind to do one cake for her. hahahahahaha. but halfway we already ran out of cake so have to ask ppl to share. abit pai sei ar. lols. then dar came down at bout 4 plus. so brought him ard but his back very bu shu fu...dono how oso. then bring him go one round rest a while then decided he should try the lavender soybean milk. then he poor thing have to drink the whole cup. hahahha. but his reaction was same as mine(u all noe lah. ;P). but i tink our group the most slack lah. i tink we practically din bother to explain to the students only to the VIP and we sit almost the whole dono how many hours. lols. sux attitude. haha! but whatever lah. n we still can pretend we're recording the announcing of 4D coz our voting number was 949 so 4D number is 0949. Jessie couldn't stop laughing when we were making a fool. lols. damn funny. =DDDDD

8:17 PM

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i want u

Sunday, July 27, 2008

today is such a fucked up day for me. at first still ok wen gg for tuition. then reached dar's place n started doing work. so i tot regulations report i have to add in all the number thingy but turns out yuan lai is joey's job. best of all while doing i still thinking if its really my part. until joey came to tell me: 'jul u do my part for the report leh!' fuck. ok nvm. hao ren you hao bao. n then i went on to do processing assignment. i completed 3 pg when dar said wan to go for dinner already. by then we already decided where to go eat n i was starving. so i happy happy save and wen i wan to send to my mail i cant find the file. at this time it was still "F". so dar helped me search n i tried too. nth found. so it became "fuc". n i searched somemore. NTH AT ALL. so finally it became "fuck!!!!!". n then i cried. coz it wasn't ez to do 3 pg within 1h plus. n naturally i wasn't happy. n so was dar. n his mum came to find wat was the noise all bout. so i guess for the first time in her life she saw my tears. luckily i wasn't crying like shit or else so pai sei. on the way home dar finally told me i should have typed at the 2nd column in the search box instead of the first. thanks for telling. but wat can i say. im too happy that i have to start from the beginning.again.

9:37 PM

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Saturday, July 26, 2008

so next mon is the exhibition day liao..after much realization that this week is already week 15 gg on to week 16. cant wait to complete that day..sure very tiring de. lucky dar n his fren's coming then at least got more fun. hahhahaha. but do hope our poster can make it. i only like the background but not the words. lols.

few days back dar sprained his spine. company him to c doc the next day n doc say alot of the bones have shifted coz of the muscles that caused the shifting. so that morning he cant even walk on his own but afternoon c doc eat medicine then much better le. dono wat god-like medicine the doc give but at least he can walk without me supporthing le. but at the clinic really wait until very long. we talk for like 3h plus or something then finally is his turn. omg. n i almost fell asleep while waiting. i still tell him to sleep i help him jagar if is his turn or not yet. hahahahahahha.

so i tink today i have to cancel tuition to complete forensic ppt, report, labelling report and food processing report by tmr. n there's still food processing test to study which im waiting for clar to send me the tips. clar faster send!!!!!!!! haha. =)

10:12 AM

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Tuesday, July 22, 2008

has anyone watch the ad on calefare or something like that? some ans are real dumb lah...'its a happy moment', 'calefare means calefare', 'it means lousy actor' bla bla bla. LOL. i don understand how calefare can be a happy moment seriously. ha. mayb its gg to be like that time the ch 8 show the never say die or something where they got back all the worst n funniest people except this time its in eng. hmmmm...haha.

so this week im done with labelling presentaion. one down. those ppl that have to present forensic this week are kinda lucky. at least they're down with 2. so comm skills teacher has give some of us a sweet present on the last day of school: mock interview. im so gg to screw that. n i haven study for comm skills test this week. haiz. best of all we're all screwed with proj many of us even forgot wat this week is. we still tot we're in week 14. -_-" n i tink yr 3 is a jinx. hahahahaha. coz im getting alot of first times. first time i mis-remembered the time sch start, first time i brought my uob card instead of ez link card, first time i forgot the week number, first time im drowned in the sea of projects and many more first times. come to think of it i dono should i laugh or get mad at myself. =)

11:45 PM

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Sunday, July 20, 2008

today during tuition clar called n told me that i have to find all the nutritional labelling for all ingre we used in order to write out the nutrtional panel for our product. now tt is not fun. at all. but luckily there was dar dar. he helped me copied down all the labelling n it was so funny. until the ntuc lady oso laughed. lols. n then came home complete the regulation report n ppt (yay!) n dar even helped me calculate the total weight. thanks dar! then before gg for dinner dar n i talked n he told me alot of stuff. which made me kinda confuse at the moment x_x but i tink i'll figure it out soon. so now im done with 2 more stuff. good. =)

9:27 PM

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Saturday, July 19, 2008

ok lah...got nth much to blog about...juz that i haven completed the labelling ppt which im suppose to send farhana by tmr and the nutritional labelling which i don even noe how to get started. but anyway clar told me anyhow search so ok lor..i'll start to anyhow search after im done blogging. =))) first time everybody complete their part except for me n clar. lols. feel so stress liao. lols.

i've given alot of thoughts bout wat im gg to do after i grad n dar has given me some really good points. so while my frens are gg for further gg to i dono where im gg to work. although it's a waste of my 3 yrs but come to think of it...its not really that wasted coz im gg to start my own food biz. hehehehehe. so im gg to work at some F&B restaurant full time at the same time give tuition for extra cash. anyway dar will be signing on so i shall keep myself busy. n there's violet to company me. =) n if jh still haven find bf then i will keep go ka jiao her. hahahahaha. anyway jh u ask me to stay over rite? must keep promise de leh. lols. so anyway i cant wait to grad. at least no more reports no more exams no more research no more anything. juz money money money and good observations. nice.

8:33 PM

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Friday, July 18, 2008

ytd was 17. means is our 2yrs 2 mths. so me n dar dar went to watch the dark knight. actually i wanted to buy the tix without telling him. but had to ask him which timing he can make it. then he told me he already made reservations for dinner so cannot go watch. so ok lor..n then he say we'll be gg to the cathay there to eat. fine. n then he take his own sweet time at gramophone like supervising every inch of the shop n then i say y don we go check out the time slots. n he's like yeah ok. but he still continue to supervise the shelves. then we finally went up to the cinema he said he wanted to go toilet but i must for him then go check out the slots together. now tt's not right. normally he don bother but since i was sick i could only think he's not right. by then the timeslots all red liao, means fullhouse. then im like sad today cant watch. n then we went up to lvl 6 n he asked 'u wan popcorn?' by then i knew it. he got the tix at 6.30. online din show that timeslot so i din noe there was a 6.30 n 7 slot. so wat was suppose to be a surprise for him turns out to be a surprise for me. n its not once. so great minds that think alike is a good or bad thing?lols.

dar dar say the movie very nice but i dono how to appreciate batman so to me its not bad only. lols. but heath ledger acts really well. sad thing ar.

1:43 PM

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i want u

Tuesday, July 15, 2008

i seriously dono wats wrong with me these few days. is like i've never been sleeping well for the past decades or wat. first that week i came sch at 9 wen actually sch started at 10. then so many bad stuff happen and today bridge sux like hell. played super badly like as if i first time play n clar tot i forgot how to play(-_-") and then wen i gg to meet dar for dinner i realised i brought the wrong card. instead of bringing my ez link card i took my uob card. so until the bus came did i realise i took the wrong card i had to go all the way back juz to take a card. n it was drizzling. haiz. wonder wen jul jul will be back again. haiz.

9:33 PM

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i want u

finally im done with pdd presentation. i tink today is the worst day for the soy bean milk group. they couldn't even finish presenting what they prepared. n they got bombarded with the most qn compared to all groups. n they have the best student in that group. tt's sad. n our group only got one qn which took us very long to ans yet still don really get wat he wants. but anyway today's quite a good day. n dar finally got the mac cup that he wants. i wan to collect all 5 sia. but archery ending tmr le. haha. may i'll juz get running n swimming. =)))

4:09 PM

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i want u

Monday, July 14, 2008

today i went to dar dar and his group of frens to watch red cliff. nice nice show. but there's a to be continued after 2.5h. but i tink this movie is better than 3 Kingdoms. recommended to watch. =) so after some debate we ended up at KFC for lunch. suppose to be S11 then subway then S11 then KFC. hmmm. so while we were eating they were talking bout the exam dates. so all of them were kinda complaining bout their dates and they only got 1 day exam. i was feeling sad lah...i have 5! but then dar told me they're concurrent de which is true. more sad ar. suppose to have no exams le. n then i realise one thing: his group of ppl are all concurrent de. lols. im so slow at realising things. hmmm.

9:19 PM

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i want u

Saturday, July 12, 2008

oh ya..forgot to add.ytd me n dar finally went to watch 'wanted'. great show. quite funny oso. there's this part where wesley was shooting his boss. i told dar that this part was as good as written for that bitch. really hope she watch this part n rmb this part in particular. mayb she'll fan xing and become nicer. =X

10:31 PM

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today is such a unfortunate day..i tink strike 4D first price oso not so lucky, first thing before gg for the morning tuition, i packed my long wallet and placed it into my bag which dar helped me carry. then after tuition went for lunch where he suggested that i juz take my ez link card and some money. i till happily tell him ok. coz he had to go home to do proj. until wen i reached my house gate i realised WTF i don have the control for the gate. best still i don have my house key. so i still tot my dad could help me open the door. but no. he's not even home. so im stuck at the void deck and i need a toilet to bake cake very badly. for once im so glad that the void deck has a toilet. ok so second tuition is at 3. that means i have to wait somewhere until 2 plus then i can start journey. then my k2 mum msg me and say if can 3.30. then i told her is it ok if i go now?coz im stuck outside my house. lols. n so nice of her she say come over now. better than stuck outside. hahahaha. she saved my day. then somehow at her place my nose like kena activated or wat keep so itchy n i keep sneezing. at first i tot ok mayb its juz a while but NO! its been the whole day n im still sneezing. fcuk. is anyone else's day worst than mine?can share with me on msn. =X

9:00 PM

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Thursday, July 10, 2008

my results are all out except for pdd...n im totally disappointed with forensic. mayb it should be a lesson learnt or something ba. but anyway at least i got a b plus. so far its 1 A, 2 B+ and 2C+. hope pdd will become 2As. haha. equal. today dar dar went running with his fren at nyp stadium or track, whatever u call that. at least he's training up. dar keep it up. so after sch went to find him then i sit down there play game and they 2 missing i oso dono until i look up then im like 'eh?where they 2 go?' but i continued playing my game. LOL.

tmr im gg to study for the bitch paper so hope i can study finish then don have to rush until very jia lat. i like go everywhere oso call her bitch. sad ar..first yr in nyp not yet even 6 months kena known as bitch and some other intersting names. then mon gg with dar n his frens to watch red cliff in the morn. hahaaha... jing chen wu is so handsome. *.* LOL. anyone noe how to spell his full name in eng????

11:36 PM

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Wednesday, July 9, 2008

Dearest mummy,

so how is life up there? im sure u have made lots and lots of friends like u did wen ure still here. last sat was ur 100th day. time past so fast and ure gone juz like that. looking back at ur pictures in papa's phone brings back all memories we had in the past. from the time wen u were still fine to the time wen u started to deteriorate. ever since u were gone i missed u so badly. up till now. i have so much things to say to u, so many things to show u, so many problems hoping that u can help me solve. yet i noe its impossible. every small movements reminded me of u. even those sedimental songs that jiahui's dad played while we were playing mj bring back those happy memories of us. i rmb u always said that u n me will always be happily together no matter wat. sometimes i even wake up thinking u're in the bathroom washing up but then i rmb that you're gone.

that day wen i went to visit u, me n alvin brought u 3 roses. really hope u like it coz they're ur fav colours. i couldn't bring myself to say out anything. all i could do was to stand there n looked at ur picture, feeling hopelessly helpless. i wish i could put all ur bones and ashes back together and bring u back to life. i wish i could do all the impossible stuff. but i will rmb wat u said in my dream. u had to go because ur time is up.

mummy all i wan u to noe is that i really love n missed u so much. that dream where u said u love me too really made me feel better. thank you so much and i really hope that u will be in good hands of the Lord as u were so devoted to Him.

12:10 AM

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i want u

Monday, July 7, 2008

today dar dar sick. his fren oso sick. my fren oso sick. like everyone oso sick. hope next is not me. *touch touch wood*. then in the end dar's fren become nobody to follow coz cheryl don have to go sch le. lols. poor guy. the whole gang not there for him. but dar told me he's a walking encyclopedia. i can c y. lols. he talk oso so chim de. haha.

today joey n yis like so weird... dono like having cold war or wat oso. but i can c the tons of armies from yis n joey side and clar's side walking towards the point of meeting le. like narnia wen the 2 sides gg to fight. hahahaha. i tink i watch too much le.

ok now complain time. today is the worst day. n its the start of the week. tmr first ting in the morn have to c the bitch face. how i long to c that face. rite. today whole day food chem. ok still can. worst is we did 3h plus of prac. at 6.30 the prac still not over but wth its way past end of sch. work oso OT liao le. lols. damn tiring n hungry lah. then in the end i ate dinner at 8.30pm. wanted to go down to dar's place to c him oso cannot. but juz nice can watch so u tink u can dance and then human spirit bout this gigantic girl. so poor thing. juz coz of a tumour that's making her grow so huge. cannot say tall ar. . 28 yrs old n she's still growing. wow. in the past giants die at a very early age. but now doc in china trying to treat her. hope she survives.

9:04 PM

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was reading a blog that clar gave me the link..bout this ger who lost her bf wen he went for the brunei training. really very sad ar..cant help but tears oso flow down my eyes. if anyone wants to c it its: http://memyselfmine.blogspot.com/. but i can understand how she feels. the feeling of lost and pain is totally unbearable. i cant imagine if i had to lose dar. i tink i'll go mad..i don even noe how i can continue carrying on living. i understand how my dad feels wen my mum left him n its really very very sad. wenever dar sent me to my gate there i'll always worry if there's a phone call saying he's being knocked down by a car or something horrible's happened to him. realy silly isn't it?

after reading her blog, it makes me realise even more that even though we always quarell, dar i'll always love u. now n forever. although sometimes u really toot toot de until i cannot tahan. =P

12:33 AM

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Sunday, July 6, 2008

today me n dar went jh house to play mj with her mum. not bad not bad. haha. was fun but i play until i very tired ar. lols. 2 1/2 rounds sia. we played until 10 plus. but in the end i won 20 bucks. $.$ LOL. but poor jh lost i tink quite alot. dar dar oso won quite alot. good for him! now at least juljul got money to makan liao. or else i still worrying dono go where to get money. lols. but all in all thanks jh for the day. jh, we must play again few weeks ltr. haha. ok so now back to work. haiz. i still have a court case to rush. n my team ppl are arguing over some projs which i don even noe what they're typing. =X

11:27 PM

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Thursday, July 3, 2008

urgh...totally hate it. supposedly i wanna blog that i had to go buy movie tix myself. but now mayb jh can company me. but now i HAVE to go to sch. n should i be happy bout it? no. coz i tot i could finally bloody hell have some good sleep n yet the bloody proj makes me lose not only sleep but i have to waste some stupid 2h on some stupid comm skills that teach nth but how to write boredom perfectly. n i've already planned wat to do tmr. URGH!!!

10:32 PM

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so today is the sensory day. n it turns out awesome. lols. not even one dislike the cheesecake and some ppl even say wan to order the cake. LOL. but really glad that dar brought all his frens to come help me out. i tot he would juz bring 2 of them. lol. never noe come out of the lift wha! so many ar. lols. dar really million thanks. love love u! all gan proj still come. lols. but even cheryl who hates cheesecake oso say very nice. hahahahahahahhaha. so wat is the moral of the story? it doesn't mean 3 pointers are good at everything. 2 pdts produce by the best student in class yet both got bad comments. how sad. lols. i tink juljul very bad ar. haha. but its true wat. =)

to the best student in class: smart can le don act smart. =)

4:43 PM

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Tuesday, July 1, 2008

so i juz came back from suntec and then after washing up guess wat? there was a roach at the toilet door. ewww.... but ever since my mum pass away i had to learn to do alot of stuff myself. even killing roach. can rmb last time whenever she goes to the kitchen n there's a loud 'PIAK' sound i noe she's killing a roach le. haha. sometimes i miss that sound. but anyway dar cant always be there to kill those pests for me so i had to learn. so as usual i picked up the bygone n spam spray on it until it was almost dead. then using newspaper i flushed it down the toilet bowl. lols. disgusting.

anyway today is the last paper for common test. clar says she feels so relieved but somehow i still feel like there's tons of things weighing me down. haha. n then week 14 still have test 2 for that bitch paper. its like 'i juz completed a paper n now i have one more 2 weeks ltr. -_-' anyway dar's already dying or mayb dead from the proj. lols. at least now he noes how i feel wen i was rushing projectS. lols. n this time i m the one relaxing playing game. lols. i tink next week onwards become im the one suffering again. =X

10:58 PM

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i love u
i want u