hmmm kind of long never blog hor..so for the latest update. mum came back home actually still ok but that night our worst nightmares came. from then the nightmares became worst n worst. the doc told us her time is very limited now. although cant say how long but its very short. then juz nice the doc look like meizi. =_= anyway looking at her like this everyday is juz so painful. cried so much for the past 2 days. during this time saw the truth bout human life. even the healthiest person can end up suffering before dying. isn't it cruel? looking at how much my dad cried for my mum make me realise how deeply in love they are and how painful he must be feeling to lose a wife that he love for almost 30 years.

Mummy, thank you for all the happiness u brought to my life. thank you for bringing me into this world. i will always remember the happy moments we shared together. wen we always go shopping together when we got lost in orchard road together and wen we laugh n joke n talk bout guys together. thank you for always being there for me when i needed someone. thank you for all the advice u gave to me especially when im unhappy. u really brighten up my life and never fail to put a smile on my face when i c u. you always protect me and end up being criticised by papa. im sorry to bring u so much pain and im sorry i was never always there for u even though i noe u needed me. im sorry for being so infilial and i really hope u will forgive me. but i don wan to cry in front of u, i wan u to noe im strong enough to go thru this period with u. its hurts me so much to c u in this state when actually we're suppose to go eat together as a family and have fun together. im glad that soon u can go back to where u came from. to the place where there's only joy and happiness. and pain does not exist. mummy u'll always be in my heart forever and no one can ever replace ur place in my heart. u're more than a mother to me. you're my best fren, my confidant and the best mummy in this world. mummy i love u.

today while waiting for dar saw cindy soh n AK. n wow wow. cindy soh really go slimmer wor...that time dar dar told me i still don believe ar..but today like can c her figure wor. lols. dono is it she go expression or she go do yoga... ok i wan to go cut hair but im still thinking wat to cut...tot of styling sia..but then need extra $$$$$..haiz. anyway mayb i go there then c their magazine. LOL. today my mummy discharge le wor!!! so happy. finally she can come home.then i no need to rush up n down. nati oso can everyday help me wash clothes then i wont lack of clothes to wear. LOL. but today she discharge like gg travelling for a month ar. dar always say my mum go hosp bring only one bag go but gg back is bring 5 or 6 bags home. LOL. tt's really funny. haha. so now my mum's appetitie's quite good already. so happy. hope she can faster become ok...then can walk about again. so miss her coming into my room to wake me in the morn. ha.

i juz saw one phrase "women will respond quickest to a man's action or lack of action. Men will respond quickest to a woman's attitude." i like that. lols. quite true....

to my dar dar:

im sorry that i blarred at u ytd....i knew i shouldn't have done that but my mind was really preoccupied. im sorry i couldn't be there wen u needed me...but i'll never noe wat happened if u don tell me. what happened ytd was both our faults. i should have told u the time to meet then all those things would not happen n u would not be even more stressed up. i really want to help u as much as i can...so pls..anything tell me ok? i don wan ytd to repeat itself again.....

i love u truly, deeply, forever

your dear dear

the one thing i hate the most is wen ppl make promises and break them. if u break it once, fine. surely u have ur reasons. u break it twice i will tolerate. but if u continue to break them i do have my limits too. its the same as u eat the wrong food u can vomit or shit it out. but u don shit it out and eat it back in rite? worst is wen u tell me u noe ur priorities. do u really noe them or do u say that just to shut me up?

so today went to eat dinner with my dad..since i got played out at the 11th hour. n i really mean one hour before meeting. my dad already knew i was gg out but in the end i told him i will be eating dinner with him. so he was shocked but i juz said some ppl go fly aeroplane lor. then at bout 8 plus we said goodbye to my mum n went off. but at that time we still dono where to settle dinner.lols. so jia lat. but in the end decided to settle in longhouse at thomson rd there. n we met my dad's fren n we had dinner together. but he forgot my name so i told him again. guess wat? a min ltr he asked me "jocelyn wat are u eating?" -_-"

haha..suddenly my tag box like so lively..lols.but love it. at least i noe got ppl visit it. haha..ok for these few days im like wondering exactly wat type of haircut should i cut. n i have all the stupid ideas which i tink dar's kinda losing interest whenever i talk bout haircut. LOL. think i really nth better to do liao... so my mum's able to discharge on mon. dono wan to be happy or sad oso..discharge no doc no nurse wait something happen dono wan go where call for SOS oso. haiz..... anyway today finally dar able to visit my mum(she's been like asking for him since the past 2 days). then she so cute. wen i told her alvin came to find u le she straight away wanted to hold his hand. then she asked me "is it really alvin?shi alvin mah?y he never talk to me???" LOLS. dar since wen u n my mum so close ar?lols.

so long never blog..oso dono where to start.haha. lets c...i PASS!!!! hahaha. tot i will fail nutri sci n fdp processing. n my i don tink i can hit gpa of 3 by the time i grad. great. =X
ok my mom was admitted into hosp. was praying that she would nv have to enter there again but looks like my prayers are not heard. n it got worst. but at least now she's talking...really hope she can really become better again or else i hope she never have to suffer any longer........

so i had to postpone my tuition on sun to tue. n that made my very blur.until now....i kept on wondering if tue was eng n maths or chi n eng or chi n maths or wat.lols.even on that day itself i was still wondering. soooo many things in my mind. n i was worried that we were very very very behind time which turned out to be true. so tue was a rush. rush thru everything but making sure my student understand until at the end of 2h my mouth ache liao. haha.

ok put aside the side parts...mon went to watch water horse with dar. crusoe was so cute. esp wen he saw the dog the second time. n then the tiger head.lols. his reaction was so cute. cant stop laughing. ok then today went out with clar n jy to watch step up 2. i like the part where they danced in the rain. nice. but we missed abit of the front. coz of jy.haha. after the movie came out then clar somehow spotted jess n her stanley. so loving sia...haha. n they were waiting to watch semi-pro. -_- n i was still wondering who the hell would watch that.lols. but it seemed jess was practically enjoying herself was i said 'eeeeee'. LOL. then jy realised he forgot his umbrella. so he sneaked in to take which we tot he would sun bian sneak in to watch rule #1. lols.

today dar went to cut hair. good lor...never even wait for me. kdkd. Clar next week we go cut hair leh...we go jess aunty de. ok?oh n next week lets go out again oso. got any nice show must tell me then we go watch. haha.

P.S: guys wen wan to eat dinner together?ask malcolm along oso leh...so long never c him le.

completed my driving test at 10am...failed. again. even worse than the last one. did everything my instructors told me..even dar's instructors oso said the same thing but turn out wrong wrong wrong. the tester cut cut cut the marks until so shiok like doing some art n craft. i really wished it was. then after that couldn't help it but cried.try to hold back tears on the way home...came back hug my mum n cried for almost 2h. poor her..cant eat juz to console me. haha. i grow so big today then noe i can cry so much. lols. wanted to meet dar but cant coz he got the competition tingy..tml oso cannot. guess have to find a way to bluff my mum since i got tuition at 8. so wanted to blame him for not being there but how to?its not his fault that it clashed with my test. everything feels so rojak rite now..wish everything was juz a dream. wake up n its a brand new day..haiz.

ytd was my first tuition lesson..nv screw up.haha. but the boy was like very slow.spent an hour plus juz to do eng. and then left like 20 min for maths. which is impossible. so bo bian i extended it until 4pm. then had to ask him if he got any sch hw which he dono. so turn out really got..then first lesson set him quite alot of hw including chi so that thu don have to waste so much time. lols. but he's real shy. or mayb coz ytd was only the first lesson..hmm.

but before tuition company dar to suntec to search for graphic card but in the end we went to find my frens.lols. met some of his frens too...funny thing was i saw yis, gw,yx, justin but i never c clar.went round brother oso cannot c.but i saw dar's bro.lols. yis intro de..really look abit like him but until now he still strongly disagrees. lols.

today wen driving in the morn. don seem to be awake somehow.like some blur sotong driving a car.haiz. but the instructor was kinda cute. like everything was so funny to him.lols. told him i was in FS n he's like "wow! ure studying about food ar?" hmmm.....lols.

ytd me n dar went to watch the leap years. yes, finally.lols. nice...some parts funny but i like the last part best.wen 'jeremy' wrote that love letter to li-ann...so sweet. actually the movie gg to end le i oso dono.haha.so blur. coz too nice le.haha. next movie is water horse. but i like watch too much movie liao sia..jia lat ar.lol. ok so tml will be my first time giving tuition n its quite worrying. hope i don screw up sia....screw up tt's it ar...today wen thoroughly thru the exercises from the assessment books n the maths qns are like..O.O it take me, dar n his da jie to solve one of the qn.lols. at first dar got the logic which i din n he's quite proud of it(lucky ure my dar if not slap slap slap.lols.so proud for wat.hahahaha). anyway his sis manage to get the formula which is right but i don the student will get it anyway. for us we're always using algebra n the short cuts.hope tml i don teach him short cuts but i PSLE always use short cut sia...lols. haiz....

today is my first driving lesson after 10.12.06. haha...so at first starting abit nervous.lols.tot i'd even forgotten how to use the clutch.lols.so cartoon. but anyway throughout the lesson it was ok.the instructor say only need somemore polishing before wed test. so mon n tue must serious liao.haha.hope i pass. then after the lesson went home then go out with my parents for lunch.n whoa....they brought me to ah yat at turf city there wor. nice nice. then there we saw all the seafood..so cool lah. the oysters are like whoa..sad never take pic coz too far le.had to stay with my mum. but i manage to take a pic of the alaska crab.its damn huge ar..mayb the pic cant really c. but the claws are damn long. but we din order that crab lah..my dad ordered one sri lanka crab steam for my mum.so sweet. so pics below are the seafood that we ate..the rest are all dim sum which i din take. but it din seem that we order alot but wen eat ar..wah.damn full ar.i tink my dad is like the king of eating ar...my mum used to be the queen but now her stomach shrink i become the queen.hahahaha. anyway the food nice.except the lobster...mayb coz it was fried with salted egg so not very nice. use wrong lobster to go with salted egg liao. the only thing missing for this lunch was dar dar. so sad he couldn't go...coz of fyp. haiz.nvm next time u take mc then we all go again.haha.then this time u can help to push my mum.LOL. muack.

steam sri lanka crab for my mummy

salted egg canada lobster. should have gotten aust lobster instead....

herbal drunken prawns...soup damn nice..we drank the whole thing.lols

haha...ytd so lucky. went to cathay suppose to watch the leap years in the end guess wat me n dar watched?10000 bc. lols. i seriously think im not fated to watch the leap years.lols. dar say fri wan to watch but i tink we may end up watching water horse.lols. anyway 10000bc nice. never disappoint me.haha. the sabre tooth tiger damn chio ar. although only appear like few shots. the graphics oso very nice...cannot even c that its computer made de. oh n how we ended up watching that?the tix were free. LOL. went there then this woman say are u 2 gg to buy tix?then we're like yeah..then she straight away say y don u watch 10000bc. we're(acer)giving out free tix. =DDDDD

n i haven bought the assessment books. i tink im gg to die teaching chi. somemore is PSLE. at least give me one p1 still ok. lols. anyway today im gg to buy them. confirm chop seal. this week oso cannot go swimming. haiz. hope next week can.if next week oso cannot go i tink by the time i grad i'll be fatter than now. =X dar dar wen can we go swimming ne???? =D

hahaha..got my first job last night. but their inexperienced when it comes to tuition. n so m i. haha. anyway at first i tot it was like 160 per sub n they wanted 3 sub. so naturally i tot it was 160x3. crazy i noe but that's wat i tot. turns out i was..wrong. haiz. so in the end i reduced it to 200. the mum was like shocked that i was willing to reduce so much. normally mums don care n she was like saying u don have to give me an ans now. we don wan to cheat u but coz we dono anything bout tuition. bla bla bla. so nice of her. but now im starting to regret.lols.i should have said 250.lols.but im inexperienced. ok. oh anyway im gg to tutor their PSLE son. more lugi. haiz. seems he's weak in everything(n im not surprised) n i have to get assessment books for him. he never does them.n i wonder how he manage to climb to p6.hmmm...ok so now i got my first job.im gg to agency.lols.i really wan to teach lower pri sia.like that sure to pass de...give me one PSLE guy n im starting to worry.ltr tonight i tink im gg to buy the books with dar after his fyp n tml i'll start doing them. urgh.hate them.

ytd suppose to watch the leap yrs but ended up watching....Jumper. lols. not bad the movie.quite funny oso.haha. then halfway thru still got one guy called to ask bout the tuition. stupid...i watch movie halfway then call.lols. then i kept saying sorry n that i will call him back. but in the end he off the hp.guess he's not that interested anyway.he sounded so dead.y would a dad sound so dead when he's finding for a tutor.hmmm...think im gg to agent to get students. scully wen i go agent then some parents will call up. -_-

dar's kinda lucky for his fyp. he's involved in the robotics competition. hmmm..helping amk sec students to make admendments for their robots n he oso have to some flash tingy. saw the book bout the robotics n how to make it.one word to describe it: chim. but his fyp very ma fan. took like half a day to brief. then still got lect. dono wat. n then 2 weeks ltr change proj.don tink my fyp can change every 2 weeks...hope it will be like the sfma competition.ha.how free we were.lols. but now c dar so hardworking like so weird. guess gotta get use to it for the next 3 mths.lols. bet went aust for the fieldtrip.wen he comes back must ask him send photos.haha.i wan c the vineyard sia.... =DDD

today never go c yis perform.wasted...but today bz sia..poor dar dar today last day of hol still must pei me go paste ad.lols. thanks lots lots lots lots lots dar. love love u lots lots.muacks. really appreciate it...tml treat u watch movie n makan.lols. today went whole of sin ming, shunfu n part of bishan.still got somemore parts of bishan no yet cover. n my area the blocks. lols. lucky i never go myself sia...or else i tink one day oso cant complete anything coz im really bad at reading maps.lols. today we still go popular to look thru all the assesment books n i tell u now p6 oso learn the stupid eng that i dono how to spell sia...damn sia suay. lols. then still go best denki to find out more bout the HD tv for my dad. dar dar so good sia...lols. better still raining ar.at first don wan to go bishan coz raining then suddenly on the bus the rain stop. haha.so we decided to paste at bishan near the salvation army.then dar still say wan to go shunfu there paste.wah..he more hardworking than me.LOL. maucks.

has anyone watched the leap years??i wanna watch sia...heard it was very nice but i c like ok ok only. haha. today planning is to go paste the poster for tuition(im looking for students.). so anyone with lobang tell me ok?im experienced de..lols..for pri sch n kindergarten only but cannot let parents noe.haha. must highlight the "anyone with lobang" coz sometimes ppl juz glance thru then forget bout it.so my frens u must tell me k?if ur little relatives or frens need tuition. LOL. hope today don rain again..or else haizzzz. tml dar dar gg for fyp liao..he say is from morn to evening.haiz. dar tml don late k?haha. muacks. i tink i fyp sure everyday can sleep de.if do bact must wait for hours for the bact to incubate. if do food must wait for hours for filtration or evaporation or whatever. so in summary i tink we go sch to gossip rather than do proj. lols. but nvm i can continue to do my cross stitch. that one on hold for like half year liao ar.lols. hope can faster complete. haha. =DDD

P.S: my driving test coming le.12 march.next next wed.hope this time can pass.pls don give me some stupid old man again. n hope faster got students give me tuition.haha. n clar wish ur mum fast recovery k?hope everything will be fine for u n ur family. =)