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Thursday, March 27, 2008

hmmm kind of long never blog hor..so for the latest update. mum came back home actually still ok but that night our worst nightmares came. from then the nightmares became worst n worst. the doc told us her time is very limited now. although cant say how long but its very short. then juz nice the doc look like meizi. =_= anyway looking at her like this everyday is juz so painful. cried so much for the past 2 days. during this time saw the truth bout human life. even the healthiest person can end up suffering before dying. isn't it cruel? looking at how much my dad cried for my mum make me realise how deeply in love they are and how painful he must be feeling to lose a wife that he love for almost 30 years.

Mummy, thank you for all the happiness u brought to my life. thank you for bringing me into this world. i will always remember the happy moments we shared together. wen we always go shopping together when we got lost in orchard road together and wen we laugh n joke n talk bout guys together. thank you for always being there for me when i needed someone. thank you for all the advice u gave to me especially when im unhappy. u really brighten up my life and never fail to put a smile on my face when i c u. you always protect me and end up being criticised by papa. im sorry to bring u so much pain and im sorry i was never always there for u even though i noe u needed me. im sorry for being so infilial and i really hope u will forgive me. but i don wan to cry in front of u, i wan u to noe im strong enough to go thru this period with u. its hurts me so much to c u in this state when actually we're suppose to go eat together as a family and have fun together. im glad that soon u can go back to where u came from. to the place where there's only joy and happiness. and pain does not exist. mummy u'll always be in my heart forever and no one can ever replace ur place in my heart. u're more than a mother to me. you're my best fren, my confidant and the best mummy in this world. mummy i love u.

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